I can honestly say that I have had alot of change in the past few months but not for the better. I have allowed the devil to take ahold of my soul and make me mean, hateful, revengeful, and just down right a bitch to be around and to live with.
My marriage is not the best it could be but to be honest I guess I can't ask for much more because I don't have the will power to give a damn about anything including myself, the marriage, the home or etc. I feel guilty about wanting everything to be about me but I feel as if I have been handed one heck of a punch and I don't know how to recover from it.
I miss church but I don't feel comfortable going because I am not comfortable with me at this time. I don't want to go up front, I don't want to sit and cry through the whole thing, I don't know how to explain it. Hopefully one of these days it will be where I can handle it and get back to where I belong. I love Living Hope Church
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Changing but not allowing it to be for the better
Posted by Tina B at 8:12 PM
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Tina - sounds like church is exactly where you need to be. Getting involved will help you get over your depression and anger. Just go - soak it up - let your spirit be healed.
You will always be welcome.
Turkey dinner - Wednesday at 5:30 before service :)
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