THINKING look out I am in trouble

I have been thinking about a lot lately (of course not much else to do) but anyway.

People as why is there so much hatred in the world? I ask why do people try to make another have so much hatred?

People say be happy because nothing is going to change. I say if people were so happy would they try to bring down their supposed friends to make them unhappy.

People say get them out of your life they are bringing you down. I say those that have hurt you in the past you need to keep them close because if they did it once they will do it again. Better to keep you friends close and your enemies closer to be on the safe side in my opinoin.

People say not to say Merry Christmas. I say why not this has got to be the dumbest thing I have ever heard of. I don't understand the big deal if a religion does not celebrate Christmas then what is the difference going to be if we say Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays. No matter what we, or the retailers do it doesn't represent another holiday it always comes back to CHRISTMAS. You don't make Hanuka cookies, Holiday Cookies you make Christmas cookies. Santa doesn't come on Hanuka he comes on Christmas. Baby Jesus was not born on Hanuka he was born on Christmas.

Why do people spell Christmas XMAS? God under no reason X's us out of his life no matter how much we think he does, I have learned from experience he is trying to teach us a lesson. (Wow I am done learning thanks) but back to my point. He doesn't X us out why are we him? Christmas is HIS day.

Why are people always so set in telling others how to live their life, What to say for holidays, what people to hang out with and which ones not, making people feel guilty because they are not always calling them-hanging with them or etc. We are an indivicual we have to live that way period. When we don't do this and we let people do this to us they get control once they have control that is when we get into trouble because when we try to take our life back they take this as we are trying to control them and then that opens us up for lies, deceit, and so forth. Anything to HURT the other person. It seems that some people Live to Hurt not Live to Help. I wish I could understand how to handle people like this instead of letting it drag me down.

I sit and I read my blogs and it is very obvious I am not happy with myself, my life, and etc. How do I change this? How do I get where I was? How do I learn to trust again? I am begging for answers if you have any please help me find them.