Hello again

It has been a while since I have wrote. I will finish my story at another time but to catch you up for now.

I received my test results Tuesday after 3 hours they have come to find out that I am not ADHD. Thank God for that because I would cry at night because I did not want to take another medication.

But, I was found to have severe bi-polar, and severe depression, and severe anxiety. I questioned this because I knew that bi-polar was depression so this diagnosis didn't make sense to me. He said I was right but my test results were so high that I also rated for depression meaning that when I am in a manic state I don't get the full bi-polar state because I have so much depression it pulls it down. With the anxiety social is one of the main problems with it so that explains why every Sunday when I get ready to go to church all I want to do is cry, and I get sick to my stomach, palms sweat, and just plain blah.....it really upsets me because I love my church I just can't get over this. I go to my therapist this week and I think I am going to talk to her about this. I think I could do it if I had someone to go with me and I have asked a couple of my friends one lives in Chandler and she doesn't have the gas to come to Boonville, and another always has an excuse as well. I will just have to continue to pray for this to get better.

I sent off my federal tort claims in regards to the story that I am writing about hopefully they will look it over and get back with me and I can add or delete whatever needs to be done.

I am going to pray that I can wake up one day and walk back into that church without the nerves giving me fits.